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hey guess who? im your owner dammit. gosh i almost forgot i had a blog once in my life. i thot i lost the password but i recovered it. and my last post. efiin hell. 20000009? its 200011 now mannnn. like back to the future man. hahaha. anyway. i finished ns. ive got a job now altho it's new, i like it. im still with my girlfriend who i love soooo much but often quarrel with. (but i know we love each other. hehe) ive got into a part time degree course due to start in may. alhamdulilah and insyaAllah i'll do my best. i hope to save and start a family soon. so how blog? do you think i've grown up? looking back at my posts, i did grow up. life isnt easy and im barely reaching my peak. nevertheless i hope i can do my best. my family is still 4 in numbers. dad is doing ok with business altho there are ups and downs. but i have faith in dad and he has my and the family's support. my younger bro is applying for uni. and i do hope he gets it soon. most of my friends is doing their best in life too. two of my friends are in uni now, the other two signed on and is loving it every day. (i hope!). another one is working in something he finally like and is passionate about. and the rest is doing good. im happy for all of them and i hope we do survive in this ever expensive country. oh well, i know this is a short one, but im sooooo happy we met again blog, and i do hope it wont be another 2 years before i meet you again. certainly hope not. alright, am working tomorrow so i better get some sleep. you take good care of yourself and see you around. . waldorf mansion hahahaha. if someone ever asked me where's this place, i would be very happy enough to bring right to the gatefront. pecah siak. hahahahaha. ok i don't think anyone ever read this. but what the heck, i'll just click the publish button rather than keeping the post like most of my previous entries. hahahah. ok la bye. . my 360th post. hmm, most would have switched to something other than blogger, but im still with this crap... err, thing. hahaha. well its the only online blog im familiar with, and sounds nice for the web address. anw got myself a laptop la. why? ive been aiming for one. my younger bro's cpu is a no no. hahaha. well the first thing i did when i got the whole system up and running was to play my bmtc videos in a dvd r/w they gave me. reason was because, i didnt had any dvd r/w in the cpu. pathetic rite? hahahahaha. well memories raked up when i watched the video. altho most of us hate those times, but we missed it dearly once its passed. its where we got pushed to the limits for the very first time. trying hard to reduce our damn weight, and making us combat fit sooldiers. oh well, whatever it is, i gotta start planning for a lot of stuffs. future, work. serious im still undecided. gosh, which is pretty bad given my current situation. must decide at least 3 months before i ORD. hmmmmm "Apache, close eye open eye, told you it'd be over" . red shirts, costa sand, block K, bbq chickens,bbq meats, prawns, sardine puffs, rice, sambal sotong, bbq sambal promfet, ketupat cokes, blueberry, niece and nephews running around, night rounding, carpark H prank, nissan sunny wrapped with newspaper, coolshit diarhoeas etc. that basically sums up the whole NDP holidays. cara ah   . was it that one sentence or was it this one man? i believe it would be the latter. when words that michael jackson had died, the whole world turned bizarre. i woke up ytd to my mum's voice that the king of pop is dead, as well as farrah fawcet's death simultaneously, the charlie's angel of her time. i went to work ytd with almost all the radios playing his song. i reached to work with almost all my fellow medics disbelieving in that news. i woke up to thousands of RIP's note on all of his videos in youtube. i read the news today with almost a zillion others in the world gasping in disbelief. i saw the news with thousands outside his home and the hospital he was in, moaning in disbelief. so i believe it is this one man. and all he ever did was to sing and dance. but he did it whole heartedly and he became the king of pop. yes, there was a few setbacks here and there, a few controversies on his stunning appearance change, his cases etc. but that did not stop him to amaze the world with his beautiful talent. this one 'kid arose to king of legends' brought many 'mother earth' values to us. and what better way could he have done it than through his songs. i believe another elvis presley kinda thing is happening again. i believe many would still not believe of his death. but whatever it is, his music stays man. RIP yaw amcm bole jadik newscaster pe aku? anw ni H1N1 pon macm siak. tu budak yg kene dlm camp aku pon mcm siak. kalau kene camp quarantine pon lagik siak. tapi kalau kene home quarantine, tkla sesiak. alamak, so many bad news. . alrite. a lot happened. i dont know where to start. ok so im still serving whatever im suppose to. oh well currently, im in bad terms with the word 'extras'. typically anything that has got to be signed is effed up under the law im governed by now. its either you sign extra, which is not good, sign on, which is not reli what im thinking about for now and much more etc etc. but lets talk about something happier. well, had our much awaited KL trip last 2 weeks. it was damn fun that i still missed it even after 2 weeks gone by. we reli learnt how to be patient in waiting for it, almost 4 months, and when it finally arrived, it was so fun that 4 days passed us just like that. got to drive up to genting. and play the theme park altho some of us were praying that most of the rides were closed. cos it reli looked scary. hahaha. we even met sarah up there. and she took a pic of us just to show paktam that she bumped into us there. haha weird bumping into someone you know at some part of the world u're not familiar with. anw, got a couple of things that i had wanted to buy. overall it was great. they're planning it again, but im not so sure i could go again, cos my family's having a langkawi trip end of this year. hopefully if it does happen again, i could go again and enjoy. well some of our group pics.     fun memories huh. but well, all good thing comes to an end. anw, i had the opportunity to catch 'angels and demons' and 'night at the museum 2' after the KL trip. well i don't think 'angels and demons' was as good as 'The da vinci code'. maybe the book is better just like da vinci. well i'd try reading it up if i have the time. you know how much i dread reading english novels. not that i hate, just that i prefer the malay ones. 'night at the museum 2' was superb! simple storyline, but the funny part was ass filled. hahahaa. kezohh geng. owen wilson was supeb. ben stiller was superb. the KAHMUNRAH character was superb with his pelat 's' accent. Amelia earheart was the bomb. i forgot the actress' name. hahaha but she acted in pearl harbor too if im not mistaken. simply put it, a good show to laugh your troubles and worries off you for the moment. ok now back to reality, tomorrow duty siak. keznohh . why? why? why? why?????? why the fuck did i do it? what the fuck was i thinking? only regretting and feeling paranoid now? i cant seat in ease now fucks . so it was fri the 13th. wooo. well ive got duty on valentines day. not that it affects me much, cos i reli dont need the day as compared to my colleagues. and never reli belived in this day, cos i think love should an all year round kinda thing, not just directed on one particular day. but looking at my packed schedule next week, i kinda regret doing the duty. hahahaha. oh well. anw in our time enjoying love and such, i would like to pay my respects and condolences to the women and kids who died in amiriyah in 1991 on the 13th of feb after becoming victims of US' smartbombs punching through the bomb shelter there, slowly killing hundreds of women and children in there, while the culprit get away free with just statements of attack miss-coordinations and unreliable informations. sometimes i wonder if people should get angry with the US, altho i never supported terrorism, but would sept 11 have surfaced if they had not strike the anger of these people. oh well lets not get carried away. lets just hope obama fixes up all the screw ups the previous president(s) have done and meet his 16 month target. well its 5 hours into valentines day, 2 hours to take over my duty, thus last but not least, happy valentines day to u guys and please, do not cause the birth rate to shoot up sky high on this, er, rather 'special' day to u guys. wear protection if u have to. good luck! hahaaa . well i was back from jogging one day and decided to drive around. passed by my old neighbourhood. not much has changed and that reli brought old memories of the neighbourhood itself. my old house, i saw, had a few aircon 'filters' hanging outside, which means the current owner has airconditioned the whole house. i think its changed quite a few owners, that was what i last heard about the house. spent my whole children life till pri 6 there from the day i was born. well then, past by my old pri skool as well, and took the time to slowly look at it and though much has changed in terms of the design, but the layout, i believe is still the same. i can still visualise my old classes as well as those P.E. rooms. but definitely the design's changed and they've reli made use of the spaces, cos i see soccer fields and some walkways shelters in the school. if im given the chance, i reli hope i cud go back pri sch times. dont reli have to worry abt much, except for homeworks and crying moments. yeah i do cry when i was entering my pri one days. yeah like a pussy rite. well at least i admit to it, i was in pri one dammit. even got the first principal of that school bringing me in the school, cos i was reli stubborn enough to just sit and cry at the gate, not wanting to enter the freaking school. hahaha. old days. much had reli change, so much that if im given a chance to be a teacher, i wud choose either my pri sch or sec sch to teach, just to see how much difference are there during my time, and the future generations- in terms of everything, of course! hahaa oh in anws, i finished yet another malay novel. i hate this feeling. each time i finished a novel, i wud keep on thinking about the characters. till i read the next one and slowly foget the previous one. you cant blame me, it had almost a thousand page. naturally it takes a while for the story to subside from my mind. well whatever it is, alia maisarah, luqman hakimi, luqman hafizi, datin junaidah, azilah, azrina etc played a significant role in accompanying me to kill time while at work or at home this past 2 weeks. "and i hope, that you missed me, tonight chelseaa..." . i tried to talk, but i don't think u're interested. but i reli hope my advices goes out helpful to you, cos im reli sincere with them. maybe im just playing for keeps. . arghhh besok keje ahh. all alone in that freaking medical centre. arghhhh. dammit well went mustafa with the rest yesterday. ezad, khairul, yazid, fauzi and me. we were like just checking out stuffs while i get my own toiletries for camp, till fauzi asked me for the counter. so i thot he wanted to get some toiletries like me, but he showed me shah rukh khan's music dvd. like wtf? hahahahha. deep dark secret pe?? hahahaha. so we went floor by floor. yazid showed me this quran in english. thot of buying it to read. since i never khatam, and even if i did, it wouldnt count cos i used to be playful during ngaji. skipping lines here and there. so i thot maybe i shud get the quran in english and read thru to understand better before i enroll in some ngaji classes next time. haiz dah tue2 bangke baru nak mengaji balik. well i jotted down some places that would take an old fuck like me to go for ngaji these recent years. just so when i have the time, i cud enroll myself and make sure i khatam at least once in my life. but currently, still dont have time. mebbe after ns lah. so i thot for now, i'd buy the english quran first. its just 4 bucks. well maybe after im done with the malay novel im reading now from nlb, i'll go get it. or get the translation ones. yeah well in anyways, im having quite a diarrheoa now, been shitting for how many episodes, ive no idea. siallah bole kene iv drip siak ni mcm. gosh if it gets worst, go to my MO lah on wed.. ask him for diarrheoa pills. dammit. arrrgghhhh besoookkkk keeeejjjeeeeee!!! . i took an off on friday since i had no duty on sat and sun. so i thot since i have an off entitled to me, why not use it and make it a long weekend. i had a good time yesterday. well, called upon most of my friends for sakura buffet dinner. but most either can't make it, or a bit reluctant with it. so in the end, we had a band outing cum dinner there, as well as with wynne, and ezad who joined later. it was fulfilling for me, but khairul, being a spoilt sport with exotic foods, didnt quite enjoyed it, as he said. maybe we should try the clementi one, since ezad told us there are even many choices of food there. well next time maybe. i was trying to be, or maybe i am, a glutton yesterday. just filling myself up, till i almost throw up after that. i swear that was like the few times i really had so much in one time. it sinful, yeah. but once in a while, its ok i guess. well we jammed at bugis at around midnight after that. altho it was like any other normal sessions of ours, but i kinda enjoyed yesterday's jam session. maybe becos we were full, and all happy about the day filled with foods. well then we went down to the singapore flyers and i didnt know part of the F1 race track was open for public to drive in and relax there, by the sea and jetty. well we played this card game taught by ezad, where we had to do forfeits and all. and i thot most of the couple there were quite mad at us, cos our forfeits so called disturbed them in one way or another. but we had fun, so no one gave a damn. hahahahahah. ok thats it. my first entry with no malay word. now for my first malay word. amaciammm?? ok tak? krg jgak pe ckp english aku dah rabak.. hahahah. yeah i thot since i joined army, my english was getting worse, but then again, ive never been good with written english. maybe becos of the fact that i've always read malay novels rather than english ones. the only english novels i read was harry potter series and the da vinci code. plus local writer, low kay hwa's books if they are considered novels. its not that i don't want to. i feel i could relate, understand and enjoyed better reading malay novels. and on top of that, im at my 350th post! wow, its been years since i started blogging. so happppppy 350th post to this blog! ps: sbelom terlupe, kepade kj the freaking dj. paiseh dok, koyakkan baju kau. seriously i didnt know that it was the design, pleated that way. gosh the designer sucks siak. ok kalau kau takleh jahit, bilang aku, aku bayar balik orite! hahah . its a sunday afternoon. im suppose to go out with my cousins and niece, but i think most of them are not up yet. so i think i shall take the time to reflect. its 2009. and gratefully its also the islam new year, 1430 hijriah. haven't made resolutions, cos i never believed in resolutions. it's also more like, any resolutions i made in the past didn't workout. either by unforeseen circumstances or otherwise. so i told myself since a few years back, fuck new year resolutions. whenever i feel like making a resolution for a better outcome, it wouldn't have to be during new year. anytime is possible, as long i seriously ant a change in my life. so i fucked up 2008, especially towards the ending. fines, lost my house keys, lost my handphones, made my mum angry, crashed the car, bla bla bla... seriously, i didn't asked for all this to happen. it just happened at god's will. but i cud have prevented it from happening, but again its god's will. so who's fault would that be? god? definitely not, cause at the end of the day, i've only myself to blame. cause even with my actions, i myself would have given myself the same endings just so i would learn. and because of god, i have learned more about my myself. okay sad parts aside. 2008 had its peak too. i got a diploma, altho its not that good. i got enlisted and learnt a lot during bmtc. it made me reflect about life, and how small are we humans as compared to god as i suffered in those jungle. after bmtc, they even got me to learn resuscitation procedures and turned me into a lvl 1 paramedic, which im grateful too. never in my life i thot i'll get to learn cpr, AED and even be in an ambulance sending cases, especially not in the army. and the best part of 2008 was that i lost weight. altho its just 14 kg, and im think im gaining back, but it made me happy and confident that it was actually possible. so i dont think while reflectiong i should just shrugg my shoulders and feel so fucked up of the bad days, i can always think of those good days to overcome that. and altho im turning 21, dad's advices never fades. sometimes its irritating i tell you, but most of the time hopefully, its good to hear them. it made me rethink somehow and felt that there's still my family who's concerned about me la... oh well so thats my reflection. "we should try not to run from problems, but to face it or let it run away from us" "jadik laki tak boleh gabra, kancheong bile ade masalah. clear your mind and think.." - dad...hahahahah anyway we celebrated grans bday yesterday along with doa selamat for my cousin going ns and it was quite cute, the pics. hahaha. kesian nenek aku, kene bully dengan anak, menantu, cucu, cicit sume angkat gamba! hahaha          and abang2 sachoks of the day... hahahaaa  . deep shit. seriously deep shit. let this explain. can't elaborate more. anw to some of them who thot i drifted, this is not a case of tokyo drift ok. just skidded okay. only that the location is not right.  . just when i mentioned about financial planning yeterday, i just have to get another fine ticket yet again. what the fuck? okay certis cisco is seriously getting on my nerves sia. Anti cisco ah, the police is still the force to be with. ah that makes two parking tickets in a month and 3rd for the year. at the end of the year pulak tu. . i think i need to do self audit on my personal self departments, especially my own financial outputs. i realise im spending way more than what i earning. i guess im still not use to the amount im earning currently as compared to what i had before ns. and unfortunately, even though i try to reassure myself that im still young, i still feel im too old to ask for pocket money from dad any more. although i realise clearly that im not earning enough. so i think i got to revamp my financial ways for the next few months i guess, till im more stable. how? thats another story. planning wise, maybe save and scrimp whatever i can or be a bit more nasty and start to turn stingy and stay in the house. well whatever it is, i feel the first one is the most important factor. so in conjunction with financial planning, i've carved out how i need to use the amount i earn wisely. as for now, the flow of the carved chart is still a flop. im over budgeting 80bucks a month. but i reli did alot in trying to decrease this amount u know. no wonder my savings are starting to flop, and i've a bad feeling its gonna cost me if they start deducting my savings each day due to low amounts. so ive got to see where else in my financial flow chart can i start to save even more. haiz maybe driving isnt such a good idea. gosh how in the world my younger brother does his savings i wish to know. . stupid goal coupled with a poor defense made me feel wasted buying the 6 bucks tix. i was overjoyed when i thot at the evry least i cud see them draw and then go for a penalty shootout. but well they cocked it up at the last 10 min, and singapore suffered a loss against the viets. gosh well luckily i was more into taking pictures rite from the start, since i thot i tried out my younger bro's dslr, while fairuz brought his. well lose it maybe, at least we've got good pics. well most of it. will upload it soon. its 4a.am, and i still can't get over the loss. more to like can't sleep, but im gonna start forcing myself to, cos in 2 hrs i gotta wake up and report for camp. anyway i thot the viets today were extremely good actors, with i think more than half the squad rolling over the pitch after most of which they made look like harsh some tackle. except that alam shah's hard smack at the opponents penalty box of course. . going to watch singapore vs viets with two of my frens. who wanna join?? doesnt matter we know each other or not, lets go to that dunnoe-how-many-times-want-to-demolish-but-still-there kallang stadium and watch!! . woah. i hit the big two's. what the fuck. thats freaking fast. so i increased a number by age, and so did my mum. but this time it was different. in my whole entire life, i didnt had a cake, im quite sure of that. not just cos my dad's not willing to buy one, i was not interested in having one. to me birthday, is just another day. never looked fwd to it, except for my 18th bday. thats all. but today, we had a family dinner at eatzi with some of my close relatives, and dad bought a cake for me and mum. and they had some sort of bday song played which thought was reli redundant. i didnt think dad thought they would play a bday song for his purchase of cake either. haha. i feel so fucking embarrassed cos nvr had and nvr reli like this type of things. but well, since dad did it, tried not to be so obvious and just be thankful, that at least he took the effort. well at least for mum la, cos i dont think he bought a cake for mum ever either, maybe perhaps only during their courting days which i wudn't know. and since im his son, i have so called followed him to not like birthday parties and all. not for me at least. but oh well like i say, since he took the effort, well thanks dad. though i didnt say thanks to him directly either. then i just realised, i never said thanks, sorry, happy birthday or happy fathers day to dad either. gosh i must reli be following some of dad stupid traits. well i think for both of us its just, u know i know kinda thing. we dont say it, but we mean it. =))     . what a hectic night sia. it wud have been a great day but it ended so with a fuck up twist. guess what? i just entered my house an hour ago despite returning early to have an early nite for tmrw's work. but on the way home i realised, i lost my phone. and thats still ok. i lost my house key too. and what the fuck, no one's in singapore. my parents are away in batam for a korban haji thingy and my younger bro in tekong. wtf! how the hell i get in the house. and tmrw i gotta report back to camp for work. and no phone to contact arnd. i was like at the brinks of just fucking myself up. i tried tracing back my route, and i cant find them, and so i meet up with my kakak sedare, and we frantically tried searching for it. but i cant find them. i called my parents in batam and mum got super angry and started shouting an cryingthat i cant tahan no more and just slammed the phone. so i had no choice, cut the phone line. call the locksmith and borrowed from my kakak sedare's husband their extra padlock. and when the locksmith managed to break thru the locks at my house, its 1am plus oready. that cost 80 bucks fuck. oh fuck. as i got mad just now, i cooled down and thot, maybe there's some good things behind all these. ade hikmah di sebaliknye. i reli learnt a fucking big lesson. put all my keys together. i cud have got worse with my wallet gone and car keys too. gotta change all the main gate locks tmrw. that will cost me more. with these and the recent fines, u can see me tying up my fucking wallet and stomach for this month. im gonna be in deep shit with cash this month i believe so. so if u wanna contact me, just frenster msg me or email. cos thats all i have left now. im getting a new sim card tmrw, same no, but too bad, no phone ah fuck. . fuck NOTICE OF A PARKING OFFENCE NOTICE NO : XXXXXXXX bla bla bla . . . . bla bla bla . Place of Offence: JALAN LENGKOK SEMBAWANG AF LP 3 Offence : PARKING WITHIN A DEMERIT POINTS NO PARKING ZONE UNDER R24A RTR. gosh. and there i was sitting at the direction of my my cuzzie's suzuki and mine as we ate our dinner, talking 'politics', yet i cant see those makcik or pakcik. fucking tactical that they should go to the army and make us revise our fire movements. so there you go, 2 mangkok drivers with 2 fined suzukis right in front of them. there goes 3 points and 120bucks. just when i thot of planning new wonders for my next pay great, just great . im gonna miss those guys in SMTI-BMC. seriously though it was short, one of the fun times in ns, and i hate having to make new frens all over again in new camp. haiyahhhhh . kind of hectic. i hate this hectic feeling. mcm tak tentu arah. already having no auto-roaming on my cell phone makes me feel sucky, now this feeling. well had kenduri arwah at johor this weekend. just today when im about to go back, my grandma fell sick. so we returned to singapore earlier than scheduled. she's got a lot of phlegm thats been bothering for the past few years. and im scared she can't breathe properly. so we got to send her to the hospital. but i feel bad. i took care of her years ago when she was admitted, but i can't today cos i had to book in. hopefully my family would get to update me later. dad had to send my granny before he leaves the country again for work tonite. so that makes me more hectic. family members all over. dad away, granny in hospital. mum and younger bro still in johor. gosh i just can't book in with peace this way. someone gotta update me with my cellphone. anyways during the weekend spend time with my cousins and i realised though we were close when we're younger, we started to drift apart as we grow. so im trying to meet up with some of them whenever im free in the future. they're my blood and flesh anyways. and who knows mite open our own swift club. haha. ok i need to start calling my mum to know where she is, my auntie to ask hows my granny and dad, gosh dad's cell phone is down too. dammit. aite nevermind he'll call mum when he reach and i can ask mum about dad. on a lighter note, POC is in two days. then i'll be a medic and then what? only god knows. . aite long weekends are here. and its extremely long for me cos i got an off rite from thursday nite. so had a good day yesterday. spent the whole morning and afternoon with mum. accompanying her to lavender to make my passport and then to geylang market to get some things before going for a visit to my grandma's place. also had a good jog yesterday. havent been jogging for four consecutive days due to the PAM test in camp. feels good. then i spend the whole nite out with rusydi, arz and khairul and went to sheesha at rusydi's frend place. hadnt gone sheesha for a long time and it was good. nightlife there is better than clubs i guess. girls. yeahhh. hahahaa. then we went karaoke sia. ok this one a bit weird but nevetherless it was good singing out of tunes the whole nite. and by the time i opened my house door, it was already 5 in the morning. so today. im not sure mite be going to gym or do some swimming. lets just see how 'rajin' i'll get ok so far i've spent 600plus on jebat. more to come but my pay is not in yet. i am expecting a bit of boom ah this coming pay. but i'll still be not able to get those cool exhaust system yet. need a few more pays and less spending. lest just see how it goes. orite happy deepavali man! . hari raya came. it was fast. this year i practically spent the whole of ramadhan in camp. except for the block leave period. oh well it helped me stay much more vigilant to my surroundings and a bit more un-lazy that way, hopefully. well as fast as ramadhan came and go, raya was like that too. one day and im back in camp before spending a fri nite raya-ing. then sat and today maybe like normal days. well ive grown up somehow now, so lets not talk about raya money. first day raya dad went for raya prayers and i slept thru it at home, only to wake up at 11am. so also like usual, no forgiving sessions. mebbe its just not my family. like i said in previous years, forgive and forget i guess. then went my grandma's hse. eat and eat that caused me to quickly go running the very next day i went in camp. then went to the hospital visit kak noi, then to my grandfather's house and then to kubur. then to grandaunty's house and then granduncles before heading home to prepare my book in next day. so it was fun but very fast. the next moment i knew, im in camp. in aneways hopefully raya wud get even more fun when i go out with friends. oh yar, and thnx to zaman who helped me wash the car together like what, 5 plus in the morning just now?? kasot dari putih jadik hitam. hahaha. air free dok.. inside out siak cuci. now its sparkling clean and shiny, that is before a birdshit.. no, two birdshits came and attack. wth . 1 weeks plus into cbt medic cse. ok lah what i can say il learning a lot of new things these few days. aneway its raye tomorrow. so fast or what? like the whole month of puasa just pass by/ mebbe cos im in ns, don't really feel it. but what the heck its raye tomorrow. got the privelege of booking out early today. so im home now, smelling to scent of rendang, ayam merah, lontong. wooooowwww. i better not slurp it all or i'll need to do lots and lots of rounds on the track later on. but thats a lot of food. hahaha my big sis cousin or how should i put it, big cousin. she got diagnosed with cancer lately. coming to raya. hopefully she gets fine soon and don't lose hope cos its the earlier stage. my and the family's prayers are always with you kak nor! and lastly selamat hari raye to all! maaf zahir dan batin . another few hours report for stay in combat-medic course. not my preferred choice but well lets not talk or elaborate about it. most importantly give my best shot. whats more, my friend khairul, is again posted same as me, unfortunately. but a close friend and something i can learn for future experience, what more can i ask. just have to conquer my hate and fear of injections. starting to miss bmt life though. especially my close buddies and platoonmates. great times spent suffering together. both my close buddies is going for OCS. damn proud of them and hopefully they are doing whats best for themselves and always with our sworn motto, to do the best. either u be the best or u don't put in effort at all. no such thing as in the middle-middle one. hopefully we stay in contact. like i said, i do believe friends made, especially thru sufferings, are friends forever. its has been a one-time only experience for us. so i guess thats about it before i report myself, just a note for myself. . 5th of june, there i was complaining about enlistment. now its 3 months later. time pass very fast. met alot of ppl, and face alot thru it. but well lets not talk abt this here, its something i can't do. so first phase of ns done, lets see what awaits me next. just wanna say BIG BIG BIG thnx to my buddies and those that had completed my first experience towards ns in SAF and we hope to see each other in our future advancement. k thats one. another, fasting month here. wow thats fast a year. well i didnt fast a day so far, but i think much of my other days of fasting is acceptable by god either. its not easy to skip away or stray away from sins in my everyday lifes. so what i can do is just try my best. praying? wow its been on and off for me, and rite now, i hardly do it. so if i could start doing that constantly would be my greatest achievement yet. there just too much i wanna chase that i sometimes went rite thru my time of responsibilty for god. k and another, hope to go back for some expedition with TEAM again when theres free time for us. its been more than 3 years since panti was held by them, well thinking of challenging myself with them for another. but its ns, so lets see how it goes in the future. k and last but not least, thats about it for now. . to the insects there, pls help me by not sticking to me. and to my bowels and stomach, pls dont disappoint me. tahan with me all the way for the 6 days ok. thanks . its not been good yet very confined as well as rejimentative so far but, nope ive got nothing to say, might get charged if not. i just believe in this strongly now; physical strength are unrestrictive, but motivational mindset toboost one morale is the essential power to go on. i just hope it would not be a drag for this 2 years. . wow another approximately 11 hours before i step into the next phase of life. am i ready? am i eager? am i nervous? only god knows. whatever it is ive got to get my ass onto that tekong fitness centre in 11 hours time. no kidding. i'll be bald juslt like others and hopefully i'll shed some weight. maybe im stress about how life will be like there, but im more stress on the injections im gonna get over there. cos i heard they have mean people injecting both my arms simultaneously. gos im soo gonna freaked out. well since the day ive gotta know my enlistment date ive planned out my days daily cos i felt like time was running out. so i ended my working term last week. then concurrently everyday i was doing something right up till yesterday. started out with a small lepaking session..  then had more fun over the weekend night..   then had a final(hopefully not) bbq cum fishing and crab caging with my polymates and some of our close frens..   and finally today i fullfilled one of my core post ns wish and that is to make my handsome jebat even more handsome. hahaha. well it cost half a month's pay but what the heck. its my long time wish. at least i can see some shit up with all the tough and rough work i did these past months. 
and finally our last fucking lepak! 
well hopefully these happytimes would help me thru my first freaking two weeks. see you guys soon! . today is stupid. i planned to go to my workplace return my stuffs since ive ended my career and prepare for enlistment next week, but i actually overslept till 4pm. gosh. what a waste. oh yar aneay those who knows anyone using a semipro canon eos 30D and selling em', pls contact me. and preferably with an 18-55mm EF lens. but if using EF S lens oso nevermind, just as long got stabilizer. pls pls contact me orite. plus the voltmeters and some other meters if u guys hear any good deal pls tell me also. im still looking for a good deal shop and put em' up in the car before enlistment. apart from that, besok graduation. then i have another to my "resort" at tekong. hahah anw im hook to the song by jordin sparks ft chris brown-no air. fuh maut dok music video. feeling gile. hahahahahahaha . work sleep eat work sleep eat meet up with frens work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work handles car ser4vice check sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work bathes in cash on pay day shops buy stuff and car accessories pay roadtax sleep eat work gasp at the sight of being broke the next day after pay day sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work go out with familly BIG meal sleep work eat sleep work eat sleep work sleep eat work sleep handle graduation affairs work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work groan at the thought of enlistment work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work get ready my ns stuff soon sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work sleep eat work graduation day last time lepak with frens last time lepak with family sleep eat and thennnnn NATIONAL SERVICE fuck my life plan for this month. i rather be a workhaholic then do national service for now . well im done at vivo rdshow. did a rdshow at marina square from 1st may till today, and tmrw im off to taka best denki. will work there till mebbe 23rd of may or till i resign which is the 27th or end of this month. well as most of them know, my next phase of being a man in singapore has come. yep im to be enlisted in june. what the heck rite. just when im about to keep more money for my future plannings and ns times. oh well when the time comes, i wont be able to avoid it. better face it now than later. so there's several thing i need to do before i "surrender" myself to the government. graduation, yeah. 29th may. looking forward to getting my scroll. dad bought a camera from me at m sq rdshow i was in till today last weekend so can take pictures and for my younger bro to use. well he got a good deal definitely, cos my colleague at the roadshow gave him an extra batt worth 80 bucks free somemore. small tripod, 4GB card instead of 2GB and good camera. though its a bit big to me. well aneways apart from grad, trying to find somewhere i can put sports meter in the car at a good deal. so those with great info pls tell me. budget 200bucks with three meter heads, cos the best i have is so far 2 but at 150 bucks. then mebbe get one of our ori up for normal recording for us to use and listen so we wont cockup and keep forgetting the songs we make. and finally balding session. yea seems a lot, and my time is running out. well lets just see what can be achieved. well anyways there this cashier at the roadshow i was working. gosh she's sweet. her name is sweet too, then my frend ask me take her number. but i paiseh la sia. after that convince for me, i was about to ask for it today, but she off. and today my last day there. now i feel so stupid cos i think she's not just sweet, her eyes are sparkling nice. and her name is exactly the same like our singapore only malay tv channel. her age is possibly arnd mine, but one or two years off me or below me is something i dont reli mind. but well i missed my chance and thats fact. gosh ok now i dont just feel stupid, i feel like im a moron. wtf . well i love my job, though sometimes i dread wearing long sleeves, but still i love my job. not becos i love standing or what, it helps me boost my confidence in speaking up to people and communicate with different type of people around the world. and i love talking at the same time. apart from that, it helps me look at how political a working industry can be. yeps, politics here and there. not bitching abt PAP and stuffs, but about people hating these guy, these supervisor always M.I.A. and yet in front of manager act good, these promoter side these sales staff, how sony hate panasonic and how everybody hates sony and stuffs like that. well theres bound to be this type of people everywhere we work, no doubt. the advice i got in doing sales is "bodek, cerdik, bedek" to be a PSP. not psp games u morons but professional sales person. bodek- bukan bodek ngan manager so kau bleh cepat promote, but mcm mane kau nak pandai bodek ngan customer so they feel comfortable with you. cerdik- mcm mane kau nak pikat hati customer so that they are interested in clinching a deal with you. bedek-bukan bedek drg ckp products kiter bagus walaupon tk bagus, but bile waktu yg tepat utk kau exaggerate lebih sikit kau nyer product so that the deal is yours. at the end of the day, when you've clinched a deal, both parties are at an advantage, you the sales, happy with the deal you've clinched and the customer satisfied with the service they've got if not fully on the product. no point having so high sales but all your customers not very happy with your customer service. well yesterday khairul, syarif and me finally jammed back again after so long being very busy. syed still too busy so we had to carry on. hopefully he can jam wih us back again a.s.a.p. well today is my off day, and its been long since i get to sleep as much as i liked. but the thought of tmrw full shift, mak oi. tapi tkpe leh kasi gaji ngan comm bomb kalau ble tarik customer. rezeki di tangan tuhan, kiter yg kene berusaha, insyallah. anw my family and i are getting a new camera for our family use, and im waiting for the lumix dmc fx-520 to be launched here. colleagues told me it mite be launched early next month. so meanwhile im trying to find review of ppl who had bought it at japan and used it. k aku nak gi rumah nenek aku, byebye. . finally, my first 8-hour working day in this month. a new guy sort of come in till sunday, so i have a nice 8 hr day working time b4 i go back to the overtime 12 hours routine on mon. well i was afraid i gonna turn into a workaholic. not like its a bad thing or what, but the idea of making my mind think of nothing else but work and nothing sort of any leisure, is rather freaky. well sales had been good at vivo so far. at least two sets per day, and i've interacted with more and more foreign people in the world cos its so happen that vivo is one of the favourite tourist site as well a cruise's harbour. i cant stop but realise there are more germans and italians people visiting singpore rather than the others, and they've got a very weird accent for me to understand. well anyways, along the way i've learnt some new things from them and i hope they did learn somethings about cameras from me at the same time. its fun working there, and wearing smart to work is not that bad afterall, but the journey. wahlaoweh. jams here and there, even with new ERPs. gosh singapore got to find a new way to reduce this jam rather than charging people. how can someone EVER become rich here in singapore sia?? oh well imagine this. ur origins are from another country, and ure were born in singapore. thats because, ur grandparents came to singapore before the 1960s. u were born around late 1970s. ur grandparents are no more and ur parents passed away when u reached 20. so its 2008 now, ure like early thirties. u have no grandparents, no parents and u dont know any cousins of urs, much to remember which descendants u,re from in the country where ur grandparents originate. ok simply put it, u're all alone in singapore. sebatang kara. how wud u feel? for me, even if u've got frens, u'll tend to get lonely cos u miss one factor. love from family. and its actually something i learnt about a friend of mine, and the thing is he never look sad or lonely. well maybe some of u might say more than a decade without parents, the lonely feeling has passed. but u're still alone right. if its me, i wonder how i'll reli feel. imagine the fun u'll have with frens but at the end of the day, when all ur frens goes back to their family, u'll feel lonely. i reli pity and feel sad for him, though i know he doesn't need my pity cos he looks happy in life and i think to him life is just abt being happy and be grateful to god and that changes the mood to the whole damn life he might reli be living. well this reli taught me a couple of things. to treasure what u have, ur family and frens in life, not just money. cos u can work for money, but once u lose ur family or frens, u cant work to get them back. of cos u need to work hard to earn money too cos it's one of the factor to a happier life, like it or not. another is to never regret life cos its a blessing by god. as well as to never think ure in the most sad situation that anyone can go through in this world, cos there's bound to be people suffering or going through worst than you in this world. well maybe it doesn't mean anything to some of you, but this lesson, it means a lot to me. sincerely. . im dead tired. hell yeah. work from 10am to 10pm ain't funny shit. must stand somemore. oh well, ive ended my amk hub in-store promotion, now im at vivo city promotion at vivo best denki. work there, ok la. tired, must wear smart with long sleeves and tie.. plus that nametag and jepon2 thingy that u must place around ur neck. jijik sia bende tu. anw lucky for me its only a month. well looking on the brightside, not much china people who dont speak english and still continue their stupid china language and accent even when u go "huh?". and gosh, vivo is full of babes. anakmakcikmataeroranggirliesniteoutgirlieseatoutday and so on and so forth. malaychineseindian you name it, they all look like babes there. gosh, and im wearing some stupid thingy around my neck which makes me look even more like a fool after going, "yes, can i help u?". bergness level drop 50 percent. charisma level drop to subzero sia. but anyway, asalkan gaji bomb sudah. then im happy. cos its only about money for me now man. . well ive finally finished watching great teacher onizuka. very inspirational, comedic yet perverted drama made in late 1990's. hahaha. watched the anime a year ago, but i stopped halfway cos that time was busy with studying. well im done with the dramas, mite catch the anime. its fun, sorimachi reli know how to act as that onizuka. he reli did it like the anime. and to make it more inspirational, it reli tackles on the issue of how traditional educational system mite overlook on the real passion of teaching. how once very dedicated souls in teachers unknowingly to them changed to ignorant individuals, especially to their students. just watch lah, then u'll find going for more. just watch on crunchyroll.com, or youtube, but youtube leceh a bit la, broken into parts. and the song's nice too.. hahahaha. hahaha go watch la if got the time, u guys mite just be inspired to become a teacher! hahaha . the other day khairul was telling me abt PETA. well its stands for People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals. well one read of the organisation's name, u'd reckon its a good organization filled with animal loving people. well watch this three parts thingy, and it'll change ur conception abt them, im very sure. 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