kind of hectic. i hate this hectic feeling. mcm tak tentu arah. already having no auto-roaming on my cell phone makes me feel sucky, now this feeling. well had kenduri arwah at johor this weekend. just today when im about to go back, my grandma fell sick. so we returned to singapore earlier than scheduled. she's got a lot of phlegm thats been bothering for the past few years. and im scared she can't breathe properly. so we got to send her to the hospital. but i feel bad. i took care of her years ago when she was admitted, but i can't today cos i had to book in. hopefully my family would get to update me later. dad had to send my granny before he leaves the country again for work tonite. so that makes me more hectic. family members all over. dad away, granny in hospital. mum and younger bro still in johor. gosh i just can't book in with peace this way. someone gotta update me with my cellphone. anyways during the weekend spend time with my cousins and i realised though we were close when we're younger, we started to drift apart as we grow. so im trying to meet up with some of them whenever im free in the future. they're my blood and flesh anyways. and who knows mite open our own swift club. haha. ok i need to start calling my mum to know where she is, my auntie to ask hows my granny and dad, gosh dad's cell phone is down too. dammit. aite nevermind he'll call mum when he reach and i can ask mum about dad.

on a lighter note, POC is in two days. then i'll be a medic and then what? only god knows.